May 2013
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Help? This is really long, just skim and if you...
Hey, I don’t know how many people actively read my blog, so this post may be in complete vain but it’s worth a shot. I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this. It’s not as if no one’s willing, but anyone I have tried to talk to (boyfriend, family members) doesnt really understand. Okay, so, some background: My younger sister used to be very thin. She took...
Anonymous asked: Just checking up on you. Please, please don't hurt yourself.
Anonymous asked: Me again. Please be good to you. Death is finality, but it is not a solution. You are better than hurtful words and actions. People try to bring you down to what they're feeling. Idk what to say. I just don't want you to die. You have a right to a future just please give yourself that chance. I was there. Just please give yourself a chance.
Anonymous asked: how tall are you?
Anonymous asked: I check here every day.
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Hi
Probably have no followers left but anyway, I’m alive. Unfortunate as it is, I am alive. Not because I want to be, I’m honestly here because of my own missteps. Shortly after writing that post, I was prescribed Klonopin for my anxiety and Ambien for my insomnia. 300 mg Ambien, 30 mg Klonopin. I didn’t mean to do what I did, but it happened anyway. I took them all, and...
March 2013
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Hi
It’s gotten to be way too much. Every single day welcomes a new pile of seemingly unsolvable stresses. New things I have to do, new sadnesses, new failures, new reasons I’m not supposed to be here. I have been obsessing over it for about a month now, making plans, setting out precautionary measures and trying to get my affairs in order. Ideally, I’d like to get it done next...
February 2013
8 posts
Anonymous asked: Your attitude sucks right now
Anonymous asked: what's your fitness pal name please? (if you give it out that is) thanks c:
Anonymous asked: are you in foster care or something like that? just curious
Anonymous asked: I hope everything starts leveling out for you. You have options.
Anonymous asked: You are not done. You want to get better. You want this change. You want to come out on the other side and you are capable of doing it. Do not be a quitter. You are not done.
I'm done
I don't care anymore
Anonymous asked: All you can do is say no and get some. Appetite suppressants Sorry there's no better option
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Nothing is going as planned.
Had that donut. Had two. Had much more than that. Can’t stop. What is going on? Why is it getting so difficult? Where did I go wrong?
K not doing well have lost 10 lbs spending day in...
Ughhhhhghhhhhhgghhhhhh whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
January 2013
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Anonymous asked: Christians that have nothing other than god to talk about. It bums me out. It's like if you were into skateboarding and never ever said anything without relating it to skateboarding, it would be boring. Where's the dimension. If god exists, he gave us independence. If you're real what do you have to prove by having a campaign in fact majorly for yourself and righteousness than your...
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Lol WTF DID YOU DO?
The Strokes released a new song from their new album and it is COMPLETE garbage. I don’t even know what to think/do/say. I can’t believe it. I’m done. SICK OF IT. Muse/The Noisettes/ Mika have all put out ridiculous albums this past year AND I AM DONE. Stick to your fucking roots. Keane did this to me before. Jet did this to me. I once liked The Killers, because the were...
Anonymous asked: Tried explaining to bf that I was feeling suicidal and sad about some of the stuff he said and instead of even trying to understand he had to justify himself and tell me that that's not something you say to somebody. I feel stupid empty and worthless. Idem I have a kid but he would be better off without me.
Anonymous asked: what cardio exercises do you do to burn so many calories ? could you give us an outline please :)
Anonymous asked: Your responses are the best. Haha
Anonymous asked: Okay. Well like I said take care of you. :) don't ever forget.
Anonymous asked: My bet is avocadoqueen deleted so she could get really skinny and will deactivate when she loses all the weight. Then she'll get a ton of sympathy and can be victimized by the hate that she receives. I saw the one she made a deleted really fast. She is pro Ana. And I know she will come back when she weighs 100 pounds. Boohoo.
Anonymous asked: Under eating and over exercising I see. Take care of you
Anonymous asked: You're not getting better, just entering a different phase of sickness. I mean like read your posts and it is pretty clear.
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Today
Has been fine so far. Had a lil breakdown last night and took too much medicine but I feel all right. I’m still sick, but I couldn’t stand another day lying around in my room “getting well”, so I am at the gym with an embarrassing cough, trying to sweat out my toxins. Cardio is proving to be very difficult, which is obviously frustrating. I had a few egg whites with an...
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Another off day. I’m blaming it on my illness. I can’t think clearly. Hopefully I will feel better tomorrow idk
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Sick
So I can’t work out and I hate that. I also have zero motivation to cook but I am at least going to make a salad today. I’m hoping this goes away by Monday, I feel awful.
Anonymous asked: No matter what, you're still fabulous and that's always fun to remember. Fantastic effort getting past a week, I would make an informed guess that if you made it that far you will accept this as a hiccup (which you knew would come) and keep on going. This is just one day in comparison to the rest of your healthy life to come.
Anonymous asked: Oh come on Katie, don't let this be a place of comfort to be down so low. You are going to do this, you have to do this and it's just a matter of when. You are ready to do this. You are so tired of doing this. You know you are, so let it stay at the curve no matter how much you look through your heart and it stares at you, crying like a sad puppy, don't let it in. Just remember it...
Anonymous asked: I think in recovery you might find that the foods you crave and think you enjoy, you don't even like the taste of at all. Do you eat (in a binge) for taste or texture. My binge preferences are always based on texture, how it feels going down my throat. My throat itches when I want to binge even though I haven't for two years. I live the feeling if being choked on food and then pushing it...
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Explosion
5 big explosions today.
I am in so much pain so exhausted so upset with myself. I just want to go to sleep. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
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Anonymous asked: Like (this is just based off what you've said in the past) your mom is abusive or it seems that way. Why do you keep a relationship with her. An alcoholic shouldn't be around the people that push them to that behavior. I think you should just stay away from your mom bc she sounds narcos tic and takes it out on you. Please just do what's best for you and not her feelings or anyone...
Anonymous asked: Are you telling yourself to die or me?
Great
Woke up sick. So now can’t leave house can’t go to gym bedridden all day feel like death ugh kill me.
No one cares just die die die
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Last couple of days have been very off
I’m very stressed. Feeling loads of anxiety. I got a prescrip for Lorazepam and it has helped but basically just helps by knocking me out. I ate too much yesterday, it was all fine until about 8:00 pm when I went to my mother’s house. Very stressful environment due to some recent events. I ate a nice dinner, very nutritious, but afterward decided to have a “snack”,...
Anonymous asked: I thought you looked nice and womanly. :)
Anonymous asked: Me either. I only wear makeup out to dinner dates bc I actually wanna get laid once in awhile. You're lucky to look so great without it.
Anonymous asked: Haha you're too fucking hilarious. You should do more character movies. Eyeshadow next time!
Anonymous asked: Watching your recent video where you had blue headphones on made me so happy for you. You're doing great. Rooting for you~
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WatchV v v v v bored
