Done. Tired. Spent. Out of control. Such is the life.
You’re sad but you smile, it’s not in your eyes. Your eyeballs won’t change, it’s the muscles around your eyes.
anorexic-boys asked: omg, i loved your blog, u'r perfect and beautiful *-*
Thanks. Sorry you are struggling.
I’m addicted to protein shakes, this should be easy.
hipposuit asked: glad to hear the b/p has come to an end for now. its such a savage. not a violent beauty, a defeating lord is all. youve got this. <3
I really hope so. Haven’t binged yet. At least not hardcore. Ate a bit more than necessary (baked goods, as per usual) but have still exercised enough to get an additional 2 lbs off. I’m only 6 lbs up now. Thank god.
Haven’t binged yet. Today is looking good. It’s 8:02. I ran 5 miles, walked 5. Blanched and froze some broccoli, spinach, and mushrooms for when I decide to eat them. Ate an apple (91), some Earl Grey with cream (3) and boiled some cabbage with curry powder (44). Not feeling like eating more. It’s a slippery slope. No sugar. I have a sugar addiction (I would never have said that regularly but it has become quite apparent since devouring donut upon donut, cinnamon roll after cinnamon roll, bags and bags of M&Ms, cake, pie, ice cream and saying to hell with anything at all savory for the past week). If I do eat something it will likely be a cup or two of Thai Stir Fry (50-100) and that will bring my total to either 140, 190, or 290, with a deficit of whatever I burned walking and running the 5 ish miles (it was a little over five, maybe 5.5. I ran at 6.7 for 45 minutes, 6.0 for 5, added a little 60 second punch of 7.0, then did a little stairmaster). I’m feeling hungry for the first time in days so I really don’t want to let go of it. Anyway. Boring. See you all latuh.
Anonymous asked: Not to be mean or rude in any way whatsoever but why don't u stop eating so much and then u won't have to purge
Not to be contrary or say that you’re a dumbass in any way, but 1) It doesn’t matter how much you eat, no one ever has to purge. It doesn’t actually do anything. So hush up. 2) You think I like eating like a pig? You think I consciously choose to eat 5,000 calories every day? You think it’s like my li’l plan? “Oh, I think today I will go pick up three boxes of donuts then I’ll throw them up, that will really aid my weight loss efforts.” No. Shut the fuck up. If I could stop any one behavior or make any wish come true it would be to stop binging. I have had a problem with binge eating/hiding food since I was like 7. It’s not that easy to just “stop eating so much”. Don’t come here with your ignorant bullshit anymore, thanks.
It’s possible.
Ughhjjjjghhhhh I bet I weigh 163.
Lol done. D O N E. done.
That’s all.